if one day you feel like crying, call me. i don’t promise that i will make you laugh, but i can cry with you. if one day you feel like running away, don’t be afraid to call me. i don’t promise to ask you to stop, but i can run with you. if one day you don’t want to listen to anyone, call me. i promise to be there for you, but also promise to remain quiet. but one day if you call and there is no answer, come fast to see me. maybe i need you. remember everyone needs a friend.
okay. i’ve tried to analyze my life a little. and i know that a lot of people come to me sometimes with issues and whatnot, like to have a vent sesh or to ask for advice or to just have someone to talk to. and i like that. i really do. i like feeling needed and wanted. now, to my point. my “daughter” is not going through a very good time right now because her dad is in the ICU. of course, she didn’t straight up come to me and tell me this because it’s not really a comfortable subject, but i still know what’s going on. and because of this situation (and some situations prior that were similar to this), i’ve realized that i’m not as strong as i think. i may be able to come up with fancy explanations and talk my way through different issues, but serious issues like people in the ICU or people who are knocking on deaths door or people who have passed away, or anything really that has to do with death or dying? hell no. i can’t do it. i can’t handle it when it’s about people i know personally, and i can’t handle it when it’s about people who are important to people who are important to me. i never know what to say. i don’t know how to act. i’m not that good with comforting people in situations such as this. and i love my baby very much, and i would never wish anything like this on her, or anyone for that matter. i suppose all i can do is pray for her and her family, especially her dad. i hate feeling useless. and that’s how i feel right now. i wanna be able to help her and get her and her family through this, but i just don’t know how to. i need help. God, please help them.
haha friendships. maybe they’re more like acquaintanceships. idk. baffles me everyday.
aww thanks malia! i have fun writing them :) i have a collection of quotes i like saved on my computer, so i thought i’d share them with the tumblr world. well…the 6 followers that i have. hahahaha
i love you! and i miss you :) i reallyyy wanna come up to oregon and washington to visit all of you guys. if i do, it’ll definitely take some finessing, especially since i don’t get breaks during the semester at hpu. hmmm, we shall see though :)
1. Get to Know Me - Mateo
2. Technicolor Phase - Owl City
3. Suffocate - J. Holiday
4. Daddy’s Little Girl - Frankie J.
5. Say Hey (I Love You) - Michael Franti and Spearhead
6. She Wolf (RMX) - Shakira ft. T-Pain
7. I Can’t Believe it - T-Pain ft. Lil Wayne
8. She Got it Made - Plies
9. Never Look Back (Start a New Day) - Zach Berkman
10. Touch - Amerie ft. Fabolous.
hmm, how random. good job shuffle!
